Every year, instead of setting resolutions and breaking them, I have decided to follow the lead of Ali Edwards and several others and adopt One Little Word that will become a guiding principle for my actions and decisions over the coming year. For 2010 my word was Learn. 2009 was a year full of changes for our family, and I decided that no matter what 2010 brought, I wanted to learn from it.
I did learn a lot this year, but some of the most important things were what I learned about myself. As the end of 2010 and the beginning of 2011 approached it didn’t take my usual time spent reading other people’s blog posts about their One Little Word to figure out what my 2011 word was going to be. In fact, I made up my mind close to the beginning of December, before I even saw anyone else blogging about what their word would be. I chose a word that reflects something I learned about myself and illustrates one change that I want to make.
My word for 2011 is CONSISTENCY.
It’s hard to admit, but one of the biggest things I learned about myself during 2010 is that I suffer from a terrible lack of consistency. I make plans, I put them into place, and then a few days later they are out the window. My lack of consistency in my roles as wife, mother, teacher, and homemaker make day-to-day living more difficult for our whole family. Our children are suffering because I am not consistent in keeping up with our home school efforts. Our finances are suffering because I am not consistent in keeping up with our budget. Our home doesn’t feel much like a home because I am not consistent in keeping it clean and orderly. I feel like my spirit is suffering because I am not consistent in spending time in scripture study and prayer.
I could probably go on and on, but I won’t. Suffice it to say that I’ve come to realize that consistency is one of the most important factors in raising well-behaved children and stable young adults. The more inconsistent I am, the more my children suffer for it, and that’s not what I want to pass on to them. It is time for me to make a change.
I don’t know exactly what 2011 will bring. I don’t know exactly how I’m going to tackle changing myself from an inconsistent wreck to a consistent and trustworthy person. I have some ideas. Some of them are ones I’ve tried before and failed at because, surprise, surprise, I was too inconsistent to stick with the program long enough to reap the benefits. All I really know is that I need to make this change, and I need to do it soon. I need to do it for me, and I need to do it for all the people who rely on me, and 2011 is the year I will do it.
(The picture really has nothing to do with this post. I just really liked it and wanted to include it somewhere.)